Titik Nadir

21+ for me and you, both born on the 1st.

This year, I’m really letting you go.

Letting go of everything that holds memories of us. Photo albums, our matching clothes, the dolls and flowers you gave me. I have to let them all go starting now.

I don’t hate you, how could I?

I love you. But I love myself more.

I don’t want to stay too long in something that has no clear direction anymore. You never really reassured me… and me? I’m just a girl who needed to feel certain, even just once.

People always said we were perfect for each other, that we were meant to be.

And I used to pray so hard for us.

But if we kept going like this, my parents would probably end up hurting too.

But the longer this goes on, the more it hurts. It’s better to let go of our four years, even if it’s painfully hard, than to keep sinking in something that’s slowly pulling me down.

I hope you find your happiness, and I’ll find mine too. We’re parting at a more mature age now, and I believe you won’t cry like before. I think you’ll understand my decision better this time.

Maybe you won’t be there at my graduation, or during my happiest moments. But I believe you’ll still be cheering for me from afar. Whether it’s with someone new, or just on your own.

And someday, if we meet again…

at a wedding, or a school reunion,

don’t be strangers, okay? Don’t forget me.

Let’s just be like old friends, and me, someone who once loved you so deeply.